Originally Posted by: _Sedna_ 
Originally Posted by: Black_Witch_Rose Originally Posted by: _Sedna_ Okay, this is supposed to be a joke....but strangely...it works...sometimes 
LOL!
'Fuck that shit....really is perfectly acceptable'...giggles/snorkles...or snorts!
There is a line....I've identified it first within mahself.....it is compassionate to a fault and brutal full of cruelty.....I accept both....and use that energy.....and I'am saying energy to focus on....compassion. It is the tougher path when there are tymes I simply want to beat the living....yeah...you know deep down....on the things I can not change, the advice given in tears behind this face of granite and apparently intimation to some and strength to others.....
Love is the hardest choice in life....and compassion is the grandchild of it....sometymes it means being a real asshole.....to some....to attempt to help them up....when every single night your hoping desperately that the real self centered never grew up from me me me concept...to stepping out and feeling or seeing the bigger picture of just how their 'choices' have fucked up other peoples lives....
it's the small rock flipped in the twist of a wrist affect.....you see it and....frustration at seeing it and being utterly unable to even get through to help them change it.....'step back' because what will be will be....
the strength is not just surviving all that but....finding the humor....crazy humor turned from wanting to just maybe....punching the living snot out of someone, a situation, you name it....
everyone has that inside them....not one does not.
Find a really good punching bag....your hurt, anger, and not being able to change something you know isn't right will eat you alive....and it is from pain...turned inside. I see it and understand it very well. It's allright....to get it all out...pot's n pan's, bang them ....got a cheap glass...throw it hard so you 'hear' that break....do what ever you need...but please never turn it on yourself.....
Because you have my promise that if you ever do that.....suicide....I will haunt you on this side on that side as the living....and you will hear me nag, nag, nag! And when it's mine tyme....and I am over there....I promise I will nag and bitch and moan and will mother you so much....you will beg for escape, even to the willy wonka factory(you will be that desperate by then...hehehehe!)
You are a young bright light....'this world could use about a million more' and we are all lucky to have you.
LOL!
Mommy Rose! LOL!
LOL yes ma'm I managed to get a bit better in the last few days and I am hopeful that from now on - even if I fall back a bit - I will keep up the good work. HERE is what happened "Real heros(heroins)seem to fall down...sometymes so flat on their faces it's a big fat ouchie....
but the difference is.....they get back up."....it's not easy....and it really is not meant to be, because...they don't know where they are in the race to the end unless....the tests come, the challenge is there....but they continue, somehow, someway.
Forget that saying "no good deed goes unpunished".....truth I understand is 'No good thing, deed, goes untested"....why?
So you know the truth of where the deed came from, really, and where you really stand in life, where you need to be going and focusing on.
Changes in the past few days for you....tell me this:
"The difference....in the past few for you has been you and a deep truth of your true strength, weighed, tested, and true"...
Never forget you are a 'strong soul'...and you will not be beaten out of your dreams, your life, you made up your mind, ..and someday others will seek your advice because it will be genuine, real from true life experiences....(can't beat that with a stick!)
Every morning you wake, there is a plan, maybe it's on purpose....
And Imma getting totally lost in your bloggie thingie.....wow and way kewl!
A rose is a rose, until it is not